The Joy of New Medication (Updated)

AAAAAAGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

My body can't stay still, my mind is racing at a million miles an hour and there are times where I feel like I can't seem to control myself.

Give a week or two and things should be back to where they were (I am so on edge right now). That's the problem with changing over to a new medication for depression/anxiety, it can take a few weeks for the body to adjust. Until then, you just do what you can (there are a number of things, whether they work is still up for debate) to try and not loose it & let the emotions take over.

Update 26/11/2017:

Nope, the side effects may have calm down but the depression and anxiety are back to their irritating levels. Until I can get a grip on all this (and a few other problems that have left me in limbo at the moment and don't forget the heat), most of my projects will be put on hold. Hell, I haven't even done an Animated Reflection in a while and that just makes me more disappointed with myself. That doesn't mean I won't be working on things (see more recent posts), but it means things will probably be here and there for a while.

A Great Day for Australia

Today has been a great day for Australia. The morning was filled with celebration as the marriage equality survey came back as a Yes result, moving us one step closer to getting it legalised (the footage of Penny Wong's reaction to the results and how the non-Labor senators supported her made even me emotional) and tonight was the sounds of celebration as the Socceroos won 3-1 to get us into the World Cup in Russia (I watched the second half and it was wonderful to feel the excitement). I admit I'm not a sports person, but things with big stakes sometimes get my attention (the last time I watched a sport game was the final of the Asian Cup, which we won).

Good times.

Wyrd's Latest Preview - Armored Whelks

So the latest preview for The Other Side and I really do like the look of this one. I think it might be the creatures face I love the most with things like the eyes, teeth and just the general shape of the face itself. I'm really liking these Gibbering Hordes.

Zootopia Case Dismissed

So catching up on Leonard French (our favourite copyright attorney), I saw the update on the Zootopia case and it went much like I thought it would. To make a long story short, the two works were detailed and when compared to each other, it was concluded that Disney's version had very little in common with Goldman's version. As a result the case was dismissed.

With that out of the way, can we please get a sequel now?

Anxiety and Supanova

So this one is a little late, but that's nothing new. Anyway, Supanova was on the weekend and just like last year I went to this one too. However, this was the first time I had to go it alone (my brother decided not to go this time round) so facing this prospect given the way my anxiety was going this year was something of a problem. Now at this point I would have just skipped it, but that changed when I learned that CrikeyDave was going to be there. This artist was the one who I have commissioned a number of pieces from in the past and I really wanted to thank him personally for doing them for me, which I got to do (it was a very inspirational encounter, though I always feel like I make a fool of myself thanks to the anxiety).

The thing is, I have created a number of characters over the years, but I'm not a very good drawer and as such it is disheartening to not be able to draw these characters. So when someone does do that for you, it helps pick your spirits up and gives you that joy of finally seeing them in various poses and scenes. Yes, even if you commissioned it, it is still a great joy and a wonderful feeling as the artist is putting in great effort into bring a creation of yours to life. For that, I can never truly express my gratitude enough.

I admit, because of the anxiety I barely stayed for an hour and so had to go. I didn't bring my camera, but there were plenty of great Cosplayers and it's always great to see the effort that gets put in, but also seeing them just having fun with it (I hope to one day do something like it too). Unfortunately, the event was too much and by the end of the day I was crippled with stomach pain and a headache (the running side effects of this blasted condition) and ended up in bed.

Strangely, I was still smiling threw it all and not the general mask smile you put on to hide what your really feeling, but a genuine one. Thinking back, it was probably the most positive and inspiration day I've had in a while even with the negatives thrown in. These kind of days are rare, but when you get them, you tend to appreciate them much more. I'll leave it on that positive note.

Preview Pics

So while I'm still in the process of figuring out how to get decent pictures of the miniatures (you can see from these shots that I do have one out of the two planned lights working. Still having issues on how to get the best focus, so perhaps a light grey background could help as the white reflects too much light and makes it difficult to edit the photo right), I thought I'd just throw up a pic or two to show some things being worked on.

This classic Chaos Spawn has been sitting around for years and was a conversion done for my old Cult of Slannesh. It was originally just a light flesh colour with a purple ink wash and a pink tail with purple spots and looked really bad. I feel the fleshy look adds a more accurate feel to how I'd imagine they'd look (I threw in some blue blend to show its dedication to its new master, Tzeentch).

While still in the painting process, this is just one of the miniatures that has had a slight conversion to help add a more Skryre feel to this Skaven Blood Bowl player. I plan for a number of them to have mutations or tech conversions, with more mutation looks for the Goblin players on the team. I had thought of re-painting the team colours to have a darker purple, but have decided to just re-design the team icon/logo.

Slowly Moving Forward

So another update. Health wise, it's very slow, nuff said there.

Projects are also slow, but moving at least. I am still waiting on parts to finish one of two Gremlin conversions, while the other still needs Green Stuff to complete. Same goes for one of my brother's Ten Thunders base constructions.

Age of Sigmar stuff has so far consisted of slowly re-basing five Skeletal Horse Archers, re-basing my ten rat Stormvermin squad I had from that one time I did them up and entered them in the Golden Daemon thing years ago, getting bases to re-base my two Heralds of Tzeentch and Flamers I did, looking into my old Chaos Ogres and turning them into Chaos Ogors and of course, taking that old Chaos Spawn of Slannesh I did a long time ago and updating it into one more suiting a fleshy creature of Chaos.

Perhaps over the next month or so I'll get around to getting photos of them and uploading them along with slowly working on both the Blog's visual update and those other projects I had planned a while back. It's been hard and I've realised that I am far more susceptible to things like panic attacks now, but I'm trying my best to slowly get things here back on track.